Blues clues o_O

Every time I watch a love story, romance/drama or romance comedy I am enriched with thoughts, before I would be totally in awe, feeling alone and wanting something, but as of late I've been completely content on what I have going on in my life but that's just the peace the God has given me but thats another story. But what I want to discuss is the way movies are made, and I'm talking old movies like I just watched "say anything" and that came out 1989 the year after I was born which meant I was about 1 then and love wasn't at the top of my list, but the movie was inspiring touching and moving, it was about a young man who didn't have the balls to tell his crush that he "loved" her which then was more infatuation, but after graduation he did it, and they began dating, and they had their faults but they ended up together. The movie had me moved mostly because he displayed a man in love, some would call him a feen and I must say he had some feen like characteristics but he was a man none the less and impressed me to the utmost. What I hate about watching movies like this is wanted someone to do the exact same thing, and as women we have thing where we see a guy in a movie act exactly how men should act but don't we want the same thing, but in fact if that was the norm you would want more. Specifically for this film he didn't do much but he made her feel special by listening to her, not forcing her to have sex, not forcing her to even be in a relationship with him when that's what he wanted so desperately. He respected and waited and that should be a norm in today's society but sadly it isn't. Sometimes its best for us women to count these movies as fairy tales, and even though there aren't disney incorporated the might as well be.




If men would man up and be one there would be less lesbians and dikes, hell less gays even because they wouldn't see woman as crazy psychotic Beasts, but sweet gentle caring women who are independent and waiting for the love of a good man. I mean men get a clue, they been writing love stories for years and it seems like only a handful gets the message, I don't why men can't just grow up. This applys to high schoolers all the same, back in the day people in high school got married and that because they took love, and the love of a good woman seriously. Nowadays, its im young and wanna have fun, you can have fun alright and contract STD's. OK maybe im pushing it, but if your young focus on school then and leave grown folks business to grown folks. But if you wanna play like your grown and have a girlfriend, grow up and find one girl you could bring home to your mom instead of chasing these fast a$$ girls out here. You little boys are the reason these girls think their in competition, they feel they gotta outshine the next chick. So they wear skin tight clothes, makeup, and look more mature than their age. This process makes these little girls insecure, which is why they post 100 pics a day on facebook for attention, and sad thing is they are so pretty without the extraness. But I blame the dead beat daddies, who aint train their daughters that they are beautiful, and the tricks that these little boys play to mess with their heads. Where are the men, its sad that even today still STILL we have to ask this time old question where the hell are the men. Its time I white up, cause all these movies are based on white men and it seems to me I've been blinded myself., they get it, black folk always taking years to catch up. I am definatly Contemplating on switching teams.



The moral of this blog entry is men get a clue, watch blues clues to even find out what aclue is and learn how to follow them, cause it seems your brain isn't catching up to what your watching. And if you don't watch chick flicks then I see your dilemma, cause youve probably never had a girl to watch it with. But then you have no excuse, you should be watching to try and find a girl in the first place. Black men just have too much pride to be a man, they rather not be one and maintain their "manly hood', and woe to the black women that allow their man to act and treat them any old way instead of the way we ought to be treated.  Men try having meaningful conversations, being respectful, treating her like how you would treat your mom or your child, in terms of respect, and love and see where it goes cause you never know. There would be less hoes in the world and guys i know you may think hoes are a good thing, but imagine when you have a daughter, you can say what you want but you never know, I bet them hoes fathers didn't think they would turn that way, and not all of their daddies are dead beats so check yourself. Think before you act, think about the future and her past, especially cause you aint tryna catch nothing condoms can still get you pregnant and risk of an STD, just saying homie!

GET A CLUE!

Mama's Boy...

Mama's boy- a grown man who is still dependant on his mother. A grown man who cannot make decisions for himself, and like to be taken cared of by his mother. A grown man who transfers all the responsibility of his dependency of his mother on his wife or girlfriend. This goes way back to who ever played a mother figure in the males life. That role shapes both a positive and a negative effects on the outcome of who they will marry, what they will expect, and who they put above the other.




A "mama's boy" is depicted as being a young man who can't live without his mommy, so much to the fact that when he marries he will look for a woman that will do everything his mom did. Sigmund Freud said that mama's boys love their mother so much at a young age that when he sees the father take away the attention that the young man wants, he gets jealous and wants to kill the father to replace him, he went as far as saying the little boy also would want to engage in sex with their mother because that was what the father did, and when he replaces him, he takes on that role aswell. Now I disagree with that last part highly, but I do agree with him when he says that the young man wants to replace the father, which brings me to a mama's boy getting married and the outcome. When a man that is a mama's boy get married, they in fact turn into the father at an older age which would be the husband and the mother would be the wife. That is why a mama's boy would expect his wife to do everything there mother has. Clean the house, wash the clothes, iron them, cook him dinner, pay the bills, now I'm not just saying that only mama's boys wants this because when you think about it all men want this. What I'm saying is that they as a mama's boy, according to my interpretation of Frued, men will always be boys, and want to be treated as such in those cases, men don't want to cook, clean and do laundry they feel its not their job, and because their mothers did it, so should the wives. Now not all men are like this but the majority of them are. They want the benefits of a wife and the treatment of a mother.


What has to happen is that the men need to disassociate their mother from their wife, they need to learn that its not one sided, and its a joined effort. You may wonder why you as a man, has a mother that did that stop and didn't complain, and why now your wife aint really having it, and its simply because times change. The new age wife is completely different from the old school one, and you as a man just need to make minor adjustments. Men if your planning on getting married talk about this stuff before you get engaged, because the last thing you want is to be blind sided cause I won't life girls now a days aren't as clean as your mother was back in the day, and also she has years of practice. That is another thing that men don't realize, you weren't there in the beginning of your parents relationship, you didn't see all of the fights before hand, what your mother is now most likely took her years to get there. So please don't get into a marriage and think its gonna be anything like what your mother has in the first 5 years, not even in your wildest dreams. Living with someone and dating is two different things, being married and being in a relationship is two different things, as the dynamic changes everything changes, don't get it twisted there's is no such thing as perfection in any relationship regardless of who you think you are. And chances are if your not fighting your being fake as hell, I digress. Men don't plan to marry your "mother", your wife will never be her no matter how hard to try to train her, mold her or change her, deal with it.

Also another thing that bugs me is when men put their mother on a pedestal, and their girlfriend or wife has to try to live up to the expectation of your mother. No No Noooo it doesn't go that way, you either accept her or you don't, no woman can replace your mom that is a fact, but no woman should feel intimidated by her by your cause. You should learn to separate, making each woman feel completely secure in who they are in your life, and know that they know their role and how to play it. Men know that when it comes to your mom they got your back and they will protect your heart at any cost, if you make them feel like the woman in your life isn't worth it they will separate you just because there protecting you, so before you as a man run to mommy to tell on your girl about a mistake she made think about the long term, and how the relationship will change because of your actions, be a damm Man and handle your business without having to run to mommy all the time.

And ladies if you have a mama's boy and you think its cute because he highly respects his mom and you feel you will get the same treatment think again, mom will never be replaced but you easily can, so as a woman know your role and play it right, stay in your lane at all times and if he doesn't make you feel secure about the role you play in his life like Jamie fox use to say "girl you better STEP", you don't need that kind of stress in your life, it will be a havoc in your life. Always use wisdom, and know yourself.

Response...OK, what tha!!!

Situation...say you have a boyfriend/girlfriend and your trying to work on your relationship, tryna basically take it to the next level and see where it can go, but their are a few speed bumps that you wanna fix before you can get there. So you confide in your mate the issues and struggles you have with certain moves or actions your partner makes in certain situations and your partner reply is...ok...OK. So my big question really is what the hell is OK, is that an answer to a question which clearly needs a few more words with syllables, and nouns. So I looked it up OK- an approval, agreement and endorsement,- all right, well enough, successfully fine. So then I thought hmmm, now that doesn't seem like the appropriate answer to a question that didn't end with a is, did, they, or starts with ok...ect
This word should be blasphemy, the only time you should use ok is when you get a direct order and you comply to accept and complete it. Am I wrong for going in, I mean isn't this a fact, I've honestly seen, used and heard people us OK as a way to shut down the other person when in a argument, or debate. Especially is your debating someone like me, who loves to not only get her point across but wants to make you understand it too. So once you say ok, I'm ok did you get it, or ok just to shut me up, and then you get frustrated. So imagine you in a heated disagreement with your mate and either of you say ok, either one will get tight, granted if their is feelings are involved. Now you might be reading and think, what if the person actually understood what was said and said ok because so and actually did change, now I find that in the human brain and I am no doctor, BUT I find that in order to completely understand what one is trying to say you must repeat it in your own words out loud so you hear it and fully understand it, now you may think you don't have to say it aloud but you do, your sub conscious picks up things that your brain doesn't, and it makes you recall better when you hear things aloud. Once you repeat what your partner has said and in your owns words, you reassure your partner that you understood, and its up to you to change. But its better to change something you understood than saying ok just to shut the other person, don't understand, don't change and waste each others time.
So next time don't just say OK, listen to your partner, hear them out, give them time to speak then chime in. Listen, Hear, compromise, learn, and change. If your having trouble in this area practice this with your parents, listen to them, hear them out, compromise, learn from your mistakes and change. This will only better your relationship and save you from eternal loneliness

Contented.​..a writers blog!!

As I read my old works, works I have written and never published, works of me being depressed and oppressed by the feeling of not being in the company of love from a man, I feel myself feeling sorry for myself, as you have when you read my stories. See this is the real me, and I have been through it, and as a female we tend to take the life out of things and make them even more emotional than they should be, no discounting my feelings at that very moment in time, but damm I was a wreck. NOW in my personal life I feel completely different. I am happy and contented with my life and how everything is going, I finally realized that I have a deep passion for writing and psychology and I am pursuing those dreams in school. But most importantly I realized that the most important relationship I need to have is with God. I stopped putting my faith in man and gave it all to God. I have grown so much in my life and have went through so many experiences you can even begin to imagine, I'm young but I'm surely not dumb, I have more street smarts than any other person I know, and trust when your traveling from a party at 4 am on the 6 train coming from the bronx with a bunch of mexicans and random blacks tryna make it home before my parent get up so they could think I've been home the whole time and live deep in queens, like very close to LI, you pick up on a few things. I was never afraid nor was I alone, but @ the point I never knew how blessed I was. God never let me out his site and protected me every step on the way, so when I tell you that God is the greatest love you will and shall ever need I deff know what I'm talking about. So this is just beginning, I'm going to turn my stories and experiences into a book and it will be nice if you follow me on this journey, I have poems, stories, dreams and nightmare that I will love to share with you, im letting you enter my head, ( damm i should be getting paid for this). You never know we may have a lot more in common than you think, and this apply's to all my readers...so thank you for reading, and supportting me...

Also, I know I write a lot, and im sorry I can't help it, the funny thing is, what you take more than a half an hour to read I write in 15 min lol, (sorry had to throw that in there lol). I heart you guys...
                            Simply a

Kiddy Love

Love




To the one that I so greatly care for, when I see your face my heart fills

with joy because I know your the one for me, I wanna be with you day in and day

out. I love spending time with you and being in your presence, I love

you...I love your dreads and how long they are, I love how patience and kind

you are with me when I get angry or annoyed. I love the way you deal with

me, you have this way of making me feel complete without even trying. I

have been searching a long time for someone like you, I cant even describe

to you the way my heart feels, when I'm not with you I feen to be with you and

see you, I don't know how this job thing is gonna pan out because every

time I think of not being able to see u on a day to day basis kills me

inside. In the beginning I could have never expected to feel this way, I

haven't felt this way about anyone but you, you are my first true love and

hopefully my last. I know when I say I wanna marry you and have your kids you

think I'm joking but I'm so serious. I would do anything for you, if I could

give you the world I would. I know your feelings aren't as strong as mine and

I know I'm giving u all my power because I love you and I don't care about

the game or the rules I love you I know this because my heart yearns for

you, these feelings I have are real and true I tear up when I think about

how I feel for you. Ishmael I love you so much and I hope in your

heart you feel the same way too, in fact I'm gonna hold out and try not to tell

you how I feel but just know on June 16th I fell hard for u and that will

be the day I remember till I die. June 1st we staring dating and we have

been speaking for two months and dating for one. I want to make love to you

and give you my all, I know at one point I'm going to have to let you go to see

if this love is real but me thinking about the future and doing so is

hard cause I never wanna let you go I love you and always will till the

day I die I will never forget that all my life I was waiting for you.

WHAT A LOAD OF CROCK, I wrote this in 08 and do I feel the same way now NO, I swear yo emotions and feelings be lying to our brains making us believe this crap. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I'm a female, who not only analyzes bull, but believes them. We did have a good eight month relationship, and I did truly care for him, but I didn't  love him, and at the time you couldn't tell me nothing. My head was gone, lol and he was the first sweet guy I ever dated, because before him they were all A-Wholes, but I digress. But what kills me is the lie and trick of being in a relationship, did you not notice that I was planning ahead to get rid of him just to see if he would come back and prove true love, like total bull. I swear the things that female induce themselves with, its like I sat in the bathroom and took a shot of bull crap up my arms to get high of the possibility of love. I was 19 and had no excuses, but I fell for it, I spoke myself into this love business. I guess I wanted love so bad I just went after it, but you cant chase love, it has to find you and flow, and I'm starting to honestly think if you don't fall in love at first glance then it takes you 6-12 months to feel the real thing. Anytime before that is bull, because if we say falling in love happens through getting to know someone then that means that we have to go through a process and that takes time, energy and commitment. Its not just based on feeling anymore but how well you know the person, I don't think you can love someone and not know what their favorite food is, or movie, or even something small insignificant which would be significant to your partner because that shaped the person who you claim to love. Love is more that words, and feelings, its hearing that your partner said for ex " they wish they could go to Paris" and you may or may not have the money but you turn that into a idea for a date, either be creative and turn your room into lil Paris, or take them to places where your from that has a little bit of Paris in it. Its listening to what your partner wants and without jumping on it, surprisingly shock them with their dreams. That's love, and if you haven't done anything that your partner has asked for, or even heard anything of importance that relates to your partner, recalculate your love and make it work, or realize your not in love and stop lying to yourself. I lied to myself enough to know what real and fake love is, look at your relationship and analyze, because that maybe you...

Kiddy love!

Say WHAT, your a "CHEATER"...

I'm not married but I can tell you this, plain and simple and I'm not even gonna beat around the bush, WHEN YOU ARE MARRIED AND YOU ARE A FEMALE, you know what let me go deeper because for you to understand this its gonna take some explaining. OK so situation, your a female and your marriage is falling apart, you've done all you've can to get his attention and its not working. You tried to be more sexier, cook him his favorite meal, clean the house more than often, buy new clothes, new hairstyle, done the works and he is still not getting your attention. Some woman take this as an opportunity to flirt with another man just to get her man's/husband's attention and if that doesn't work it can turn into cheating. Now cheating is a well thought out process when it comes to a female, were not wired like male to just get up and sex the hottest thing in a skirt, no we have feeling and most of the time we get our feelings involved. There are however some woman who can just have casual sex for her pleasure and keep it moving, but were talking about females in a relationship. So you start flirting with other men in front of him, he doesn't notice and you feel some way, either you flirted and it wasn't reciprocated or it was and he still didn't notice or don't care. Now your panicking because you realize the spunk, the flame the fire is gone. so you develop a friend (most time its a male) from work, or at the gym or even at your church, you talk to them about your situation, and HE IS SINGLE, so he lends a friendly ear to your situation. In the mean while he could be A- plotting a way so that he can  move in, which will be easy cause you gave him the que with the whole, I need relationship advice or someone to talk to when in fact that's what female friends are for, even if your trying to get a male prospective you get it from a family member or someone that isn't single. B- Men and female cant be just friends, there is always a guilty party who has some type of feelings for the other person unless there is a gay person in the mix, or the either or both parties are deeply in love. C-an ect of scenario's that I cant think of cause its a thin line. So as a woman you steer clear of the trying to get the husband/boyfriend jealous cause it always most likely gets thrown in your face. Especially if you have a psycho boyfriend who wants to kill anyone that looks or even touches their girlfriend, i call them boyfriend stalkers lol, their your boyfriend but they watch your every movement and will fight or get psycho at anytime anywhere no matter who. Lets face it, one a woman get emotionally attached to someone else who isn't their mate then you start really playing with fire, and your not wearing a firefighter suit on, so if I were you, I would slide down that pole and get out of that situation if your in one, its better to get a first degree burn, than a sixth one.

SO REPEAT AFTER ME, I WILL NOT TRY AND GET MY PARTNER JEALOUS BECAUSE IT WILL ONLY MAKE THINGS WORSE, I WILL TRY OTHER CREATIVE METHODS TO GET HIS ATTENTION.

As well as you can get a "friend" and when he shows interest dump your mate and move on, this advice does not apply to married couples. To the Married, I suggest you find the flame again, and learn new tricks, spice it up, never be boring, no matter how old, try something new, and that does not apply to swinging or adding a extra party to your bedroom, maybe a toy or new move, or new place just improvise. Most couples that are married and have alot of issues don't have sex, and its so common, and so obvious get the sex back before its too late. LADIES HANDLE YOUR IN THE BEDROOM, DON'T BE SHY, TAKE CONTROL, they love that.

Looks aren't Everthing

I hate the fact that this whole time, this whole freakin time I sincerely thought that looks were important, and for me it made things worse because I thought i was ugly, well not ugly but not pretty enough. I mean I am like the most insecure person I know, and that makes me feel like dirt but that's life you know. My point is, looks aren't everything, like take for instance the guy of my dreams, someone i have liked since i was a kid, is dating this chic that's not as, lets say not as good looking as him, or as good looking as he can get. And finding this information out made me feel sad, annoyed, upset, almost close to depressed. This whole time I thought if I looked good, he would notice me, if i was attractive he would want me, or maybe I would look as pretty as those girls he has dated or his friends. But now I don't know what to think or how to feel, I mean I know there's somebody for everybody but I really believed with all my heart he was the one for me. Now what, now since I'm a christian i have to wait for God to send me someone, like I'm inpatient and these are the facts. Not only that but I have so many other issues in my life, and I thought with someone by my side I could handle them. But I guess I don't need a man I only need God.

I wrote this post last week and didn't post it or edit it, its been a week and i realized that I didn't like him as much as i thought because I'm over it. It just funny how you can trust emotions at all, they fool and mislead you all the time. Now I feel like I wanna be single and I wanna do thing by myself, ugly or not. I feel if i get a guy and that's if, he has to like me for me, all of me and my insecurities. I am who I am, and look how I do for a reason. ex.There is this lady in church and she isn't as good looking but her husband is gorgeous and so are the kids, and with my human eye i wonder how did he fall for her, and then I look at the facts, she is intelligent, funny, and as down to earth as they come. Then it hit me, the older I get the more I realize LOOKS AREN'T EVERYTHING, and when you realize that you stop trying as hard and you live and let God. So from now on I'm going to just live, if there is a guy for me he will be there when he is suppose to, in the mean time I'm deffinately gonna just do me.

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Poetry Slam pt 1

This feeling, this dreadful feeling, feeling like no one cares, feeling all alone, my feelings has been hurt before, so young, in denial, so forgiving, until my feelings couldn’t be hurt no more, took control, made things my way, made it so that you couldn’t hurt me, no, no one could but me, I was in control of my own hurt, I was the master of my own feelings, I was strong, and unbreakable. Then I met u, and I lost control, I lost me, and had feelings, feelings of love, joy, complete and total happiness, you gave me what no one else could, u gave me hope, a reason to live, to try, to attempt, to want, and now your gone, and I have no control, no hope, no reason to want to live, wanting wanting, feeling feelings, dying death, inside this heart of mine, chained by your love, distant from your love, emotionless, weary, dry, your love was powerful, it changed my outlook, my reason of being, alone I alone, sit by your thing, the one thing I held on to, I don’t want to forget you, but u me, linking this all back to a time before, the root of the issue, the main reason why these feelings were invented, you walked away and so did he, thinking of hurt and scars result in you, the both of you, is this my fate, to be broken in two, no real true real happiness, my will to is not, no one understands, especially not you, and even though I'm over it, it still hurts my heart to know, but the past is the past and my future who knows, but how broken I am will just be weights on the next, you made it hard for me to love and to be loved, now selfish is that, screw this poem, its more of my feelings, feelings of feeling like there is but nope, no hope, just nothing, so was it worth it, meeting u, knowing u, allowing myself to love you, I can honestly say NO, the heartache was too much, a second tear, hole, nail, stab, wound, just reopened the other one.

Rant & Raves

I’m mad, angry, jealous, envious, selfish, mean, sad, downright miserable, you YOU have taken the very thing I want, I need, you stole it, you gave me it and you took it back, HOW DARE YOU, you looked me in the face and told me you loved me, told me I was special, and that you planned for me, that I was perfect, and beautiful, YOU LIED TO ME, YOU MADE ME BELIEVE, YOU MADE ME LOVE YOU AND YOU WALKED AWAY, now I’m damaged goods, no one wants to put up with me, no one wants to love me, to chase me, to FIGHT for me. Apparently I’m not special enough, or worthy enough to have what I desire, ALL MY LIFE I FOUGHT, I’m tired, I'm sick, I’m over it, I give up, I’m done, I’m broken, and you cant super glue me, I’m shattered into too many little pieces, I’m intangible, half of me is missing and you cant find it, not like your looking anyway, I’m me and I’m done, I retreat, crawl back into the shell, and stay in there forever, the old me, the me that smiled and went home and cried, the actress, the fakeness, that was and is me, and I’m back

My Love

Love defined as a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. or a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, friend, or partner. My definition is a bit different, see i believe if the person stalks you they love you lol seriously though like not stalk STALK but a little drive by here and there lol. No but on a serious note if he calls you about 4-8 times a day and sees you on a regular or tries to, and makes you happy and sometimes annoys you he is perfect because he truly cares, now if he calls over 10 times and shows up at your house before you then that's stalkerish. Now that's my personal view on love, maybe sick to you but being a victim or product of a broken home cause ME personally to seek attention and alot of it but not too much from my mate (so yea you can think poor him, but when he finds me he better come prepared). I believe that love from God, with his love I have the ability to love others which helps me love and love myself, because at one point I didn't believe in love. Sometimes I wonder when I can experience this live again, love pure and kind, never judging always patient, and accepting no matter what or who, yeaa that's real love.

Growing up the only love I knew was love from God,my mother and grandmother, I never loved anyone as much as I loved them, they raised me, took care of me and made me the person I am today. I had alot of self esteem issues growing up, faced many heartbreaks from my father, and from kids at school teasing me. I just grew up mostly sad. When I think back, I wanna cry because I started out being depressed at age seven and for most of my life. I was scarred, I even almost tried suicide at one point in my life, it was depressing, I was so lost and alone and didn't know who I was, I was insecure and I cried myself to sleep almost every night. But on the outside at school even in front of my family I put on a smile, a smile that was so real no one knew what troubled me, only my mom of course and she did the best she could to help me, but I was my own person going through my own struggles. All I ever wanted was Love, specific love straight from my father, but I never got it. I got older he tried, but at that time I was done with love, given up on it and him, expected failure and boy did he provide it. But now I know what love is, and I think that's why I require so much attention for any man that wants to be in my life. It was when I gave my life to Christ I started to realize what real Love is and how much he loved me and sacrificed for me. I can truly say that I love God, myself, my family and friends. I sound like alot of work, but I guess its for the right person. I never thought I would want this, but I think I need a guy that's gonna rescue me, like save me and show me that not all men are like that, not all men treat women, and daughters like trash or expendables. I guess I need my SUPERMAN literally.

NYC the city of dreams

New York City, the city of dreams, big lights and star attractions, we may not be L.A but we've got Big Apples. I love New York, I have been living here for over 15 years and it has been fun, I think I took advantage of almost every experience that I could, I skipped school and went to TRL in high school, I went to bars, clubs, fashion shows, I've worked at 9 stores in 4 years, I've been on about over 50 interviews, and believe me they were not no chummy stores like O.M.G it was Store Ambassador for DKNY at Saks type interviews. I have been practically all over, I've done real estate in NY so I know how to get my way around, I mean I am NEW YORK. I think the best reason to come out here and live would be for the food, and the opportunity to intern at any company your interested in. NYC may not have alot of NYC companies but every top brand has to have a business in NYC just because were that HOT. When it comes to the food NYC has over 1000 restaurants and I've been to a few but still haven't touch the tip of the scale, and I am a foodie so I will work my way around it, granted I get more dates. As well as the working aspect the intern scene is in, once you land an internship and you work hard and persevere you would be offered a position therefore working you way up the social ladder, no matter what the job is NYC has it. This place is the land of dreams, where dreams can turn into a reality, only if  you take control of the wheel and drive, its predominantly up to you. So come to NYC and achieve your dream/fantasy and make It into a reality.