Rant & Raves

I’m mad, angry, jealous, envious, selfish, mean, sad, downright miserable, you YOU have taken the very thing I want, I need, you stole it, you gave me it and you took it back, HOW DARE YOU, you looked me in the face and told me you loved me, told me I was special, and that you planned for me, that I was perfect, and beautiful, YOU LIED TO ME, YOU MADE ME BELIEVE, YOU MADE ME LOVE YOU AND YOU WALKED AWAY, now I’m damaged goods, no one wants to put up with me, no one wants to love me, to chase me, to FIGHT for me. Apparently I’m not special enough, or worthy enough to have what I desire, ALL MY LIFE I FOUGHT, I’m tired, I'm sick, I’m over it, I give up, I’m done, I’m broken, and you cant super glue me, I’m shattered into too many little pieces, I’m intangible, half of me is missing and you cant find it, not like your looking anyway, I’m me and I’m done, I retreat, crawl back into the shell, and stay in there forever, the old me, the me that smiled and went home and cried, the actress, the fakeness, that was and is me, and I’m back