Kiddy Love

Love




To the one that I so greatly care for, when I see your face my heart fills

with joy because I know your the one for me, I wanna be with you day in and day

out. I love spending time with you and being in your presence, I love

you...I love your dreads and how long they are, I love how patience and kind

you are with me when I get angry or annoyed. I love the way you deal with

me, you have this way of making me feel complete without even trying. I

have been searching a long time for someone like you, I cant even describe

to you the way my heart feels, when I'm not with you I feen to be with you and

see you, I don't know how this job thing is gonna pan out because every

time I think of not being able to see u on a day to day basis kills me

inside. In the beginning I could have never expected to feel this way, I

haven't felt this way about anyone but you, you are my first true love and

hopefully my last. I know when I say I wanna marry you and have your kids you

think I'm joking but I'm so serious. I would do anything for you, if I could

give you the world I would. I know your feelings aren't as strong as mine and

I know I'm giving u all my power because I love you and I don't care about

the game or the rules I love you I know this because my heart yearns for

you, these feelings I have are real and true I tear up when I think about

how I feel for you. Ishmael I love you so much and I hope in your

heart you feel the same way too, in fact I'm gonna hold out and try not to tell

you how I feel but just know on June 16th I fell hard for u and that will

be the day I remember till I die. June 1st we staring dating and we have

been speaking for two months and dating for one. I want to make love to you

and give you my all, I know at one point I'm going to have to let you go to see

if this love is real but me thinking about the future and doing so is

hard cause I never wanna let you go I love you and always will till the

day I die I will never forget that all my life I was waiting for you.

WHAT A LOAD OF CROCK, I wrote this in 08 and do I feel the same way now NO, I swear yo emotions and feelings be lying to our brains making us believe this crap. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I'm a female, who not only analyzes bull, but believes them. We did have a good eight month relationship, and I did truly care for him, but I didn't  love him, and at the time you couldn't tell me nothing. My head was gone, lol and he was the first sweet guy I ever dated, because before him they were all A-Wholes, but I digress. But what kills me is the lie and trick of being in a relationship, did you not notice that I was planning ahead to get rid of him just to see if he would come back and prove true love, like total bull. I swear the things that female induce themselves with, its like I sat in the bathroom and took a shot of bull crap up my arms to get high of the possibility of love. I was 19 and had no excuses, but I fell for it, I spoke myself into this love business. I guess I wanted love so bad I just went after it, but you cant chase love, it has to find you and flow, and I'm starting to honestly think if you don't fall in love at first glance then it takes you 6-12 months to feel the real thing. Anytime before that is bull, because if we say falling in love happens through getting to know someone then that means that we have to go through a process and that takes time, energy and commitment. Its not just based on feeling anymore but how well you know the person, I don't think you can love someone and not know what their favorite food is, or movie, or even something small insignificant which would be significant to your partner because that shaped the person who you claim to love. Love is more that words, and feelings, its hearing that your partner said for ex " they wish they could go to Paris" and you may or may not have the money but you turn that into a idea for a date, either be creative and turn your room into lil Paris, or take them to places where your from that has a little bit of Paris in it. Its listening to what your partner wants and without jumping on it, surprisingly shock them with their dreams. That's love, and if you haven't done anything that your partner has asked for, or even heard anything of importance that relates to your partner, recalculate your love and make it work, or realize your not in love and stop lying to yourself. I lied to myself enough to know what real and fake love is, look at your relationship and analyze, because that maybe you...

Kiddy love!