rants & raves pt1

I HATE TO LOSE...i hate wanting something so bad and not getting it. I have been that way for a long time, me being the only child i was deff spoiled for awhile, and i learned how to use my brain to get what i want just by reading people. I read people so good, i dont even have to talk to them to know what i can get out of them, just by simple body language and facial expressions and i love it. I use my brain alot, along with my acting skills, my charm and wit and i get what i want. Lately i been slacking, yes i fell off hard body, slipped up and...lets just say it was a gunshot moment. But never again, i am too smart, pretty, talented, and intelligent to let myself not conquer what i want. When i put my mind to do something i can do it, but for awile now i havent been doing my homework and putting my all, bacially half stepping. I dont know what it is but i want something and i cant quite put my finger on it, so i have been looooooosing guys... smh (shaking my head) but right now all this time and experience is building up my momentumin and when i can put my finger into what "IT" is then i will be awesome. I am already loads of fun lol. so guys its ok to loose once in awhile, your not gonna win everything in life, but you can you just cant slack up.