Rants & Raves pt2

So this is nothing informative, its just my occurring rants and raves, so for the past three days my life has been amazing, like I had an argument with my ex and it was the last straw for me, and i seriously told myself to move on AND I DID, and when i stop thinking about the past month and a half of my previous relationship and stop crying over it, I felt a huge weight lift from my shoulders like I really put alot into making it work and it was more me than him, and thats also when i realized i was wasting my time, see ladies you have to see whats before you, not the lies they say and want you to believe, I deff don't believe a word out that boy mouth anymore, and im over it. Moving on and forward is the best thing to do when one person in the relationship is trying harder, while the other person is slightly pushing you away slowly but surely. I expressed my feelings and got the weight off my chest because now he truley knows how i feel, sometimes i wonder if i really loved him or if it was just lust...but what ever the was i still do, only now it just doesnt hurt as much and i feel alot better than before. I will always care about him, and I wish him all the best. I think if it was real love it will come back to you, and for some reason i dont see that in our future, maybe a friendship but idk that. As long i have to malice in my heart against him, im great. As time goes on you move on, looking to start a new chapter in my life and thats to get a freaking job, after that everything i want will fall into place, just remember put GOD first and everything will be fine. I am a firm believer on faith and having faith keeps me going.